"It was 2009 when T. McKinley's brother committed suicide, and McKinley was brought face-to-face with his own lifelone struggle with depression and shame. In this moving and poignant memoir, McKinley revisits the events that made him who he is -- from the divorce and fragmentation of his family as a child to his own struggles as a husband and father when he realized he was repeating the same toxic patterns. But with the restoration of a broken-down house, McKinley realized that he still had the capacity to open himself to hope" -- Publisher's description.